M 60 mins inc 20 mins Threshold @ 5:19mm (5:48mm), Easy/Moderate 30 mins (6:21mm) +6x10s hills
T Moderate 55 mins (6:03mm)
W 80 mins inc. 8x1k(200m), (1200m), 4X200(200), Easy 30 mins (6:47mm)
T Easy/Moderate 50 mins (6:10mm), Moderate 30 mins (6:00mm)
F 60 mins inc 20x30s Strides (6:07mm)
S 110 mins, inc 70 mins Moderate (6:05mm), 30 mins Threshold (5:22mm)
S Easy 70 mins (6:47mm)
Total - 96 miles (6:09mm)
Total Training time - 9 hours, 50 minutes
Aerobic Efficiency - 930 beats per mile
Training is going well. In fact, really well. Quite possibly better than ever, judging by my sessions. This week was a cut back week, before two big weeks ahead of tapering for a marathon or ultra, I'm entered for that COVID-19 permitting I may or may not get to do! This week was also the first week that I have been completely off my medication. With the advice and support of my Doctor, I tapered down over a couple of weeks and took my last Sertraline tablet the day before my 40th birthday. I have suffered with quite a bit of withdrawal however, which has been tough but bearable. I suffer with insomnia at the best of times, but coming off the pills has certainly had an impact. Waking up in a cold sweat at 2:00am unable to go back to sleep crippled with stomach cramps normally reserved for a smackhead going cold turkey has been a regular occurrence. I have also had the brain zaps so often attributed to SSRI withdrawal. Lightening strikes in the brain that lead to a prolonged feelings of vertigo and nausea. I have had these frequently throughout the day and during training this past week which is a bit grim but running has still been going well despite these rather shitty side effects. I will get through it, I just have to ride it out.
Being a good man, father, husband, friend, runner and professionally successful are all things that matter to me. Perhaps the only things. They're things that are probably not dissimilar to the things most people reading this blog think of as important in their own lives. They're the things that give me (us) meaning, give us purpose. They are also the things I can directly influence. I can control to a large degree. That to me says we all have the ability within ourselves, to chase our dreams, hell to excel our wildest dreams if we just start living and focusing on those things day after day. Doing the small bits that matter that add up and compound over time, to make our lives better individually and for those around us. It's a corny saying, but life is a journey. How eventful will yours be? How will I know I have been successful at chasing and finding my meaning? I probably never will, but I suspect that general contentment while experiencing the beauty and anger of life in all its glory will be a pretty good indicator.
Get after your dreams, life is for living.